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Tuesday, September 18, 20079/18/2007 01:19:00 AM
School started!! 3 weeks of holidays ends like a wind. But I really enjoyed myself and that is why, it felt like it is only a week passed! This holiday has been a FRUITFUL one! Especially the last week of the holidays! After the sermon, "Unlawful" Hunger, it's really make me wanna be more hungier for God and I decided to do things that I never do b4 durin this week. And God reallys help me to realise many things that I have not been noticing. And let me share with you some coolcool things! 1) Pastor preached recently that our God is a JEALOUS God! Because He love us! And I was really jealous cause others have experience God in a deeper way than I do, and when I know about it, I stopped to really focusing and spending time with God at late midnight, around 5am after I waited for my whole family to go to bed. I started to be lazy for the two days, and not giving God my best and also wasting my time on some stupid online game to pass my time, instead of reading His words as I do not feel the urge again. So on the third day of it, I decided I shall go back to this momentum and stayed up late with my family, and went to spend time with God after everyone went back to their room. And during this time, I asked God, "Why? Why I do not feel You and experience You like others does, even though I trying to spend more time with You now?". Then God just start to make me realised that He is a jealous God again! As I was jealous, I began to be lazy and sian about everything. And it just hits me! God is jealous too! He wanna me to give Him my best and all! As I was jealous, I did not give God my best, and it applys to God too! God wants the best from me just like I wanna the best from Him too!! My God is a Jealous God as He love me! 2) "Everyday with Jesus" + Sitting in for follow-up! As reading the devotional and going for follow-up for the 2nd time, it reallys help me to go back to the basic. And I think this is the season when I should go back to the basic and start knowing God again like a baby of Christ! Recalling to the past, I did not really read His words, and spend time with Him when I was still a baby of Christ, during follow-up, I will be just there listening and not taking down any notes as I was scare to write notes back then. And now, with the devotional, it just helped me a lot by reading God's words in a deeper way! I will try to dig out as much as I can from every verse, instead of just browsing through it. Everytime I read it, I will be able to dig out pages of notes for each day, which I really happy about these changes in me! :D And plus the follow-up for Sera on Sunday, I sat in for it, and I started to learn thing for baby Christ together with Sera. This time round, I taken down notes and it filled what I missed on during back then. And it was really powerful! That midnight, I prayed to God. Everything just flow out neatly out of my mouth without me stumbling with words, and thinking what to pray beforehand. It was really a great experiencing and knowing that it is the Spirit that is praying out of me. Before I pray, I was so super tired and going to KO at any time. But after praying, I was so refreshed and awake! This is the time when I should start learning how to crawl again. (: 3) Do something you have never done before, to get something you have never have before! Pastor Aries came to hoGc to preach during last saturday, and the message really impacted me lots! In order to encounter God in a different way, we gonna do something for it. Even though you may not feel it during the first few days, but when you keep PRESSING ON to it, you will encounter God. You reap what you sowed! I been wanting to experience God in different way, and Pastor Aries just came in come to encourage me to keep pressing on. :D 4) How will God felt when you decided to leave Him? Pastor Glenn showed us a video of his testimony on sunday. Inside it, there is this part that really touches me. Seeing on the part when Pastor Glenn's dad was so upset when Pastor Glenn decided to leave the family, I started to tear. It just came to me that as we decided to left the house, our earthly father will be so upset of it, what more will it be for God when He seeing us walking away from Him. God will be so upset and being hurt by the decision you made. And not just God, but Pastors, leaders, and your churchies will be so upset n being hurt by you. I dont know what to say, but I know you got what I mean. Anyway, it has been a really fruitful week for me! Everything just seem so flow and linked! And today, I just recalled something! I been always thinking God's voice shld be some machomacho type with echo, haha, but actually not, and i always thinking that what came to my mind was all because I thinking too much! But I just remembered that during that time when God spoke to me, give me my visions and the verse, which I have the comfirmation from God, those time it was not in some weird voice, but in gentle voice. Haha... It's been a FUN week with God! XD |
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