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Sunday, November 19, 200611/19/2006 02:00:00 PM
u koe wad? i started to hate my sis's wedding. becos of her weddin, i couldnt do n go for tings. i couldnt go for youth camp is becos of these too. mum wanted mi tu stay at home tu pack my rm, repaint my rm n help out. bt e tings tt i dun understand is wad is her weddin goin tu do with my rm? i can jus lock e door when ppl cm for e buffets. n i dun tink anybody wanna tu c hw my rm looks like. n i tink even there is no youth camp nxt wk, i will still be spendin my days for inte outin or tings in church. n mum n dad began so horrible ytd night. they ll so different as they normally are. as if satan hav process on them. mum started naggin like a shooting gun. dad scolded for any small lil tings. haix.. tink zhen koe wad i means, becos when mum is naggin, i was on e fone with her n she heard all her naggin. bet tis e first tyme zhen heard my mum in tis way too. n dad is so unreasonable. he always said i nv pack my rm, bt whenever i packed it, he was nt home. n i dun like tu pack my rm whenever he is at home. i packed my rm already after my ite first semester exams, bt it oni neat for a few days as i started tu mug for os, hw can he expect my rm tu be neat. there ll be sth wrong if my rm is neat for exam periods. cos tis prove i nv touch my bks at all. n nw i jus found out sth, immediately after 9days of my last os paper, i ll be havin my ite exam. n i dun hav 9days for mi tu mug. i ll be in camp n preparin for e weddin. i ll oni hav 3 days tu mug for those tings tt hav been taught tu them durin e one n a half month all by myself. n i wry tt i ll be banned for it cos of my attendance. bt is it a gd ting i bein banned? cos i seriously duno anyting. n it impossible tu study all things taught tu them durin e one n half month all by myself n get gd result for it. n btw, this means my rm wun be neat oni after dec18. im stressed.. depressed.. bt POSITIVE!! i realli wan tu thk God for a ting He given tu mi. a powerful powerful ting. He hav given mi a positive mindset. whenever i facing prob or down, i ll tink tis prob positively. hahs. rmb there is once, i shared with funny tt i felt unstable durin e beginning of my christian life. n in the end, i ended up givin myself reasons y is this so. hahs. n ytd, i broke down into tears for a min after dad back. bt after tt min, im back tu normal. as i hav given myself a reason y tis is happenin. hahs. im standin STRONG!! n i gt a bad feelin tt i ll be facing bigger PO startin frm nxt wk. bt hopefully it ll stop after my sis's weddin. i couldnt go for svc today becos of my parents n ltr on ll be goin tu try e weddin gown. i wun hav tyme tu mug for my paper tmr. n i seriously wry tt i might nt be able tu go for svc on nxt sat too. cos e weddin is on nxt sun. bt i gonna pray pray pray for a way for mi. rmb ivan said durin F zone svc, "when there is a will, there will be a way". im gonna believe n hav faith. I MISS MY SPIRITUAL HOME!! |
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