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Sunday, July 16, 20067/16/2006 02:41:00 PM
i decided tu post ting happened todae first b4 updatin those posts i haben update yet.. cos todae hab been a damn emo dae of mi!! there is a ZA summer camp hangin on todae at east coast park.. bt i din wanted go.. i realli din wan tu go cos of sum reason which i bu fang pian sae at here.. n elaine wantin mi go cos she sae odd no.. n she sayin im ps her.. im sry if u realli bein ps by ur two frens,eunice n nisha at there.. i jus felt tt if i go, then the two of them then ll stick 2gather.. bt if i din go,they wun ps u de.. i nt sure my feelin is correct nt.. if im wrong,then im sry.. k,elaine is persuadin mi since ytd nite.. n tis morn she called,n start persuadin again.. i hab bcum so stubborn n keep habin my stand fer tis few months.. if i realli dunwan, i ll hab my stand till the end.. n she gave up.. bt we still continue it usin sms.. i told her all e reason yyy i dunwan go.. n she ll still sayin she ll be alone.. n i hab a tot of acc her after tt.. sumtime i jus went xin ruan.. bt she din koe it.. i went xin ruan at 11.40sth.. bt i oreadi tell gen i wun be goin after i hang up e fone wid her.. n she may hab tell e organiser tt i wun be goin.. i told her bout it bt tink she duno i hab went xin ruan.. yup..she duno.. n our sms jus stop after tt.. durin e smsin, she sae 3 wrds tu mi.. n i felt sad n hurt..then stella called when i replyin her, at tt moment,tears was ard my eyes..tink stella felt sth wrong,n she asked mi y i talkin in tis way n i sae cos i habin runnin nose.. haha.. tt was part of e reason too.. n yup,i went fer svc todae.. tink its betta tu tell e truth here than lyin im at home e whole dae/went out wid my mama.. i mitin them at a ltr time.. n another prob hab cum.. grace couldnt wrk on mon n no one can cover her.. i dunwan at first cos i nid tu go sku n do proj on mon n i wrkin 4 daes continuous on nxt wk.. bt after sum agreement, we changed our shift.. she wrkin on wed n im wrkin on mon.. heex.. bt nw,i hab tu face patricia.. haix.. n hab sum prob wid agreement.. i told her y nt we hab fone conference instead, cos mi n xuewei koe xiuhui n serena nt goin bt we din tell pat bt it..n she dun agree wid it.. haix.. n nw i oso wun be goin, so oni xuewei, pat n razeena ll be at e mitin.. haix.. tink pat gonna vomit blood.. haix.. durin e svc, pst lia was preachin cos pst how jus came back fer taiwan emerge.. he needa rest.. b4 e svc starts, i was so emo-in.. n i felt so much betta after e svc.. e sermon is so cool.. n i started felt goosebumps durin e whole svc.. n i koe wad it is.. God is jus so amazin.. he is so carin.. he realli cares bout us jus lyk wad pst lia hab preached.. i felt so hurt todae n he hab showered mi wid his cares durin e whole svc.. he hab been there fer mi even i din accept him into my life.. he is great.. n after pst lia preachin, we praise n worship God.. n my tears fallen down so badly todae.. it jus continue fallin after a few tears.. tis e first tyme.. cos normally i ll only hab tear on e corner of my eyes.. todae svc is jus so zai.. i told stella tt i cried durin svc after tt n she so amazed.. tis e first tyme i sae tis ting tu sumone.. hahs.. actually i did a lot of tingy bt jus tt u all duno.. haha.. cos i owae destory all e evidences.. heehee.. still gt other tings wo.. LOL.. n after praise n worship, pst lia asked hu wants tu accept christ in their life today.. i almost lifted my hand.. bt i din cos sth was jus stoppin mi.. n tink u all koe bah.. =] then after svc, i looked at my fone cos i hab calls durin e svc.. it's elaine mum.. n i told yang bt it n her reaction is lyk, "zzz.. y din u picked up.. cos u went fer svc ryte? i jus knew it".. my tears was comin out after readin it.. bt i controlled it.. then after tt, nick wan tu hab a small prayin session.. n when we settle down.. tink stella saw my eyes went watery.. n she sae "u dun cry lei".. hahs.. these r e words i cannt heard when i controllin my tears frm fallin.. n yup.. all my efforts of stoppin it hab wasted.. my tears jus fall when i heard these words!! durin e small grp mitin, everyone shared wad they learnt todae.. i was listenin n tryin tu stop my tears at e same tyme.. haha.. after tt, they started prayin.. n nick was prayin fer mi.. when he prays, my tears started tu fall so badly.. n i cant stop it.. my mind was in blank when he prayin.. im nt tinkin bt e msg tingy.. n my tears were fallin down so badly.. n it jus stopped when he finished prayin.. n i feelin so much betta inside.. realli.. its jus so amazing!! after tt went fer dinner at meriden.. i learnt a lot of lame games todae.. haha.. our table ppl was kip on laughin n laughin.. n i take so long tu finish my food cos laugh too much le.. ha.. i laugh until my back pain sia.. LOL.. btw.. my table gt mi, stella, charlala, jinghong, si on, hong hwee, k-lemon n dawei.. we can play one game fer so long la.. n e time flies so fast tt we din realise its almost 9pm le.. happy moments jus flies so fast jus lyk stella sae.. haha.. n then went back home.. took e train wid stella n si on back home.. si on is so hardwrkin.. he tells us tt he study at e moment he reached home after sku everydae.. n oni stopped at 10pm.. he study more than 20hrs a week.. i so pei fu of him.. *claps*.. then on e way, si on sae tt can koe e religion of e person by their face.. cos they hab different look.. he can see it thru their face.. haha.. so i ask him tu differentiate my face wid stella.. n he duno im nt a christian.. n he sae i gt e christian looks.. haha.. im happy.. =] |
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